I have been called “grumpy” at times.
From my perspective, as the person inside of the grump bubble, I have only this to say:
If a tree falls in a forest, and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
Likewise, if no one is around to witness my grumptitude, am I actually grumpy?
Answer: NO. Grumptitude is an observed phenomenon.
Oftentimes my grumptitude is simply a product of my not wanting to interact with others. Not because I hate people, not because I’m mean, reclusive, anti-social, or anything like that…in fact, I am generally quite cheerful, social, and people-oriented.
Unless I’m not.
There are times when one needs a bit of down-time… some “me” time. Having introspective time to oneself is a way of finding balance. It’s a way of allowing whatever moods and thoughts and feelings inside to stir naturally, without distractions. It is a balancing and realignment period. A period of self-reaffirming.
For me, there are times when the germs of a creative idea are asking to be given a chance to emerge from the subconscious. I sense this need, even through I may not realize what is causing it. All I know is that at these times I have no desire to generate language for anyone who exists outside of my brain. And so I close down, become unresponsive, and let my internal world germinate whatever it is that needs to germinate.
Now, have I convinced you that I am not a grump?
I don’t think it’s possible. Because from any perspective other than my own, I’m the Grumpmeister. Solution? Simple. Go away. You and I both will notice that my grumptitude will disappear as soon as you’re gone.
Chances are, when you come back, my batteries will be recharged and I’ll be ready to party.
I know exactly what you mean. Explaining it again and again was becoming very tiring and time/thought consuming. Now I have a standard answer of “I’m fine, trust me – I would say if I wasn’t, be patient, observe and judge me on the evidence you gather”.